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somebodytellingyoutodothisWhatdoyouwanttodoinstead
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aroundyouopportunitiestoseeotherpeople
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avehicletofindyourself
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thebestyoucanbeatitthatishowyoulovethatishowyouinspireothers
WhodoyouenvyWhy
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